Goodbye 2025
Twentytwentyfive, what a year.
My theme for the year was “A year of healing and growth” and wow, that it has really been. I started the year emotionally broken, physically exhausted and mentally struggling. I look back now and don’t fully understand how I managed to work, mother and everything else during this time. But like I said to one of my friends a few months ago, what choice did I have? I can’t just lay down and die. But believe me there were many times this past year I seriously considered it. Life felt incredibly heavy.
I bought this sweater from Alex Elle’s site in the beginning of the year. A message to myself, and the world.
But one step at a time, one breath at a time. As the days moved forward I cried less, I smiled more, I laughed more. This year I fully chose me.
I continued my therapy weekly, I reached out to my friends every time I felt like I was falling apart and was always received with care, love and encouragement. I made sure to do things that filled up my cup. What a blessing it was that I had already booked a trip to Cape Town at the beginning of the year with my kids. It was exactly what I needed, at exactly the right time. Beautiful, healing South Africa.
I actually went to Africa twice this year. What a dream! My second trip was my first trip to Zanzibar. A dream come true. I went to Desta Retreat and for one week I got to be just Nandi. Not mama, not midwife, not daughter, sister, friend, just Nandi. It was the most magical week of my life.
On a professional level I did not complete my Master’s, but I will in 2026. I continued my work with RFSU Stockholm. I taught Hypnobirthing courses in person and online. I attended a very special home birth. Was invited to work with Asabea during Opokuas’s HypnoDoula training. A lot of things I have worked towards for years are coming into fruition, I am so grateful.
And I changed my work schedule so now I work mostly day shift and I get to attend births again, this time planned c-sections. I’ve been a guest on podcasts, done a photo shoot. It’s been a busy year.
If someone would have told me a year ago I would feel the way I feel right now at this time in my life I wouldn’t believe them.
As I say goodbye to 2025 I want to share five things I’ve learned this year:
1. Honesty always wins.
2. I need to take care of the mother of my children so the mother of my children can take care of my children.
3. My children are the love of my life.
4. Sometimes healing feels like moving backwards, in circles or not moving at all, but when you zoom out that’s when you see the growth.
5. My intuition is loud and clear, all I have to do is to trust it.
I am seen. I am held. I am protected.
This was the background on my phone all year. A great reminder to stop being a people pleaser and fully choose me.
My Top 3 Blog Posts of the Year:
What a year it has been. I am incredibly grateful for all the lessons I have learned and all the people that have made 2025 such a special year.
